Mystical Halloween Saturday

May I ran into an old Hollywood Horror Relationship from scriptural parts of my past. In our scene was a pasture as if I were from Twilight. I woke up most Fridays and stayed there about 6 weeks. I find in each of us the power to heal or destroyer complex or widen up with “The Words Within”. When you are wrong you must make things right and the best way I can do that is share and write my story. Ever since I was a little kid about to be 9 and lived under Grandma Harleys care and protection.

I have been interested in Native American Culture. We have too many of these The Gang Fights and mainly their about who is better than who, whos trying to take what, and when we’ll make our big break. In life we have many choices and mine choice was to continue to work on what was important to me through any means until I could please my Dad. Though now I learned that that is an unsafe character trait. I am taking a course on sustaining the future.

If you are interested in Learning To Better Yourself understand there’s so many ways though it takes daily effort and upkeep. I have learned that relationships do take time and effort but during these economical socially deployable times things have gotten rocky. We have had to chose sides and remember who we are instead of reminisce about what we could have been.

Witness Protection On Halloween Weekend

Why isnt and is major parties? Of course when it comes too judgement it is interesting to use your imagination. Though when I smoke the Truth and when I talk to Pals I have signed my name up to dangerous self-esteeming groups. The money has never been all mine. Especially in Heritages Rat Race to Independence.

For me The Group Home is more like a Boarding Home. In order; to say safer and out of trouble and mischief. I must be optimizing my health and my emotions and my higher being. I love each one of my friends but as friends know it takes a whole team to raise them. I wish I could spend time with my son This Halloween but seems I’ll be taking in stride of the bag of candy, three candy bars, and the Punisher.

The Pokémon GO Halloween Event Is on its Way - Nintendo Life
Pokémon : My Son is Pikachu
Sanrio Halloween | Sanrio, Hello kitty, Little twin stars

I used to love camping . . . today at 711 – I bought a Large Coffee I blended with some pumpkin spice and a pack of Camel Crushes. Each one was crushing a heart for work before I stopped. When you go into a hospital like MESA Springs they do let you smoke but at JPS they don’t. I’ve smoked a lot in the last month and I’m grateful I’m reusing old notes while other people in my class are.

Checks In Balance

I’m waiting for my Dad too send me $25 today; on payday things always got dangerous. While Mrs. Foster I won’t pay your Bills and yes my mother is an accountant and studying to be a Journalism and her blog is she has kept the same one for almost 7 years. Meanwhile in the last 7 years I’ve had 5 different ones + + + while now it’s which you are currently listening too.

I have spent a lot of money on blogging and I live in a social economical world of which we are getting impacted heavly by consumerism and congestion while living in the Group Home. The best thing I suggest is just take it slowly and don’t cross boundaries. Truth is Tarrent Country Jail has hired me when I walked away from “The Group Home” and I took care of Mean Girls and Mom’s groups I now have questioned in my daily life.

I have changed in the past month from a fast moving Republican to a Conservative to a my thoughts about what I have received in return for scientific research. I took Geography, Astronomy, and Environmental Science, and Humanitarian Science. As well as an array of good cultural district History classes of Art and Architecture. As we are about to receive our stimulus checks I am uncertain what I want or what I have or what I feel. Why do they bother so much to care.

I want to walk around and express myself as the True individual I am. Meanwhile; I’m being pressured to be and do and it feels like I had to do that for someone else until the IRS and CIA come in. Recently I have applied to the CIA or at least tried to fill out the application.

My Kid Is A Government Kid

Have Halloween Movies gotten scary? I knew Insidious growing up and at my Rehab the whole group was talking about her. When I stated that didn’t hurt I was thinking about the jobs I had as a waitress and certain turns of events turned into The Fosters, The Watchlist, The Watchmen, and having some clueless goals as a child I find is a good thing. Yes; last week they sent me my MOPS Graduation Congratulatory.

My son is middle named nothing; but he is almost everything in my world. I joined the fast track and I used to run track and all sorts of sports. While yes he wants nothing to do with sports and I noticed his obsession with Pokemon. Which he doesn’t want to scare away; which is probably noticeable when I can’t see him.

Though anyways I’m busy with about 3,000 things without 30% of my profits. I went to McNeese and I’m #13 from DeRidder. I love my roommate and housemates but I’ve been in my own little world of work.

Honestly MaMa & PaPa

When you lose your impatience with your family; I have found it’s better to take a quick break and return to your center and remain as close to yourself and what you hold dear. Though when you are holding dangerous church drama, and money hunger then you need to brace yourself around others. I have been appalled by some of the things my voice chip has caught. Though I remember doing that too myself.

At times it has gotten too expensive in my group home and now I’m preferring to call this a boarding home. I know I’m not in charge but I wasn’t trying to calm down like I should as a mature young lady. As I pestered my Dad for more of money and asked for $25. Tonight I walked to the store and bought a red bull and a pack of red, white, and blue Winston cigarettes as well as Supremes. I spent $12 out $31 which sums to what? 15 paces closer to my new fatherly handed FitBit. I am naked not to laugh but as red we do experience pain and want to experiement with…

I have dealt with all ages and stages of life. Everything in the Whole World can get dangerous but it’s all in the way you deal with it.

Waking Up Sunday

This is the second or third time I’ve written a similar post and what is it with people trying to take advantage and make their stuff so messy to fit into American Culture? Pride comes before the fall but what if I tried to keep some things private and some things safe and some things secure. After describing some things me and my housemates went through like temper tantrums and tips; we are noticing the Government using our inability to just sit in the hood and be quiet.

I bought a book for $10 at Target; one of our groups closest companions and my hand was tricked as I can tell. I have still not had surgery and my medication is up to three Zoloft’s a day. Why does everyone not understand boundaries and chakra and in my tools and friends Achy Breaky Heart “That’s Me!” from AKA did what? stole what? and asked for what?

It’s not about what is offensive it is about what is enough and once it’s in province and permeant marker you can’t take it away!!!

Saturday Service Postal

When my Dad came to pick me up we went to the Skillet and Grill in Arlington. He handed me two packs of Lucky Strikes and they fell beneath the seats of his hot red fiery truck. Now I’m sitting on my Pumpkin Bed sitting here thinking about the postal notary I just signed and how my Dad got stamps from Eagle Postal. I believe my Dad deserves a real Purple Heart!

Some people have gotten jealous and I found in my Woman Rights class to help your item and your person. Oh! how I would love to make Pumpkin Spice Lattes but the cost is so much and the prices have risen. We feel like were fixing and pulling people out of the grave, the grill, and the places I used to work that got hurt.

The Truth is sorta hurtful if you don’t have the right perspective on life. If you don’t have the right perspective on life you fall in the gutter and when you push all your relationships away most people won’t want anything to do with you.

Ever heard of the band The Postal Service; for some reason it seems people have hacked my ever working book and blog. As I seek help from my father. I have gotten in mediocre trouble with people and instead of working at Heritage sorting mail I’m working at Water Gate chasing Bill Gates Off with The Gang

Camptivated Cultivated Friday

I am told this week to do many things; it hasn’t made me angry in fact it has made me angry. As my Dad put $50 in my bank account I still bought more cigarettes. This was First Baptist Church of DeRidder’s dare for me. We used to play games like stuffy bunny and much more.

Today I picked up that my ex-boyfriend dropped my backpack up and there lay another shabby scary Bible. The one my Mother gave me around Christmas time out of my little sisters box. Today I am told to clean my room and we can only smoke a certain times. I’ll probably be smoking for as long as I live until eternal life. Even with my frozen fingers; maybe someone had a problem with me.

Though there are too many problems in this world to not make a solution. When guys and girls and all they have get taken advantage of who do they turn too? I have had such gang violence that I needed to make sense of it. So last Friday I bought “Create Your Own Journal!” but I need to finish the Cultivated book I just talked about a few blogs ago. …. That’s what I’m doing this friday sorting, reading, and cleaning. Then tomorrow I’m going to sign the paperwork with my family at the church Fielder Road Baptist Church notery.

Waking Up To Wednesday

Today’s Wednesday and we’re staying home from The Center. We woke up at 7AM and finished putting our stuff in the closet and taking our twin beds 🛌 to the room downstairs. Then our Care Taker gave us our medication 💊.

When I woke up It was 6AM. We are having carpet replaced with laminate floors. I am hoping to go to my parents house this Friday to sign the papers of adoption to my son.

Ways To Make Time For Family 👩🏻‍❤️‍👨🏻 When You Don’t Live Together or See each other daily.

1. Be open minded and seek professional help when needed. If your not seeing eye 👁 to eye; and you have to have a good future goal for yourself and being with the people you love 💕.

2. Love unconditionally & Forgive one another without bringing up the past.

3. Sort through your problems and see where you can fit the most important people in your schedule.

4. Be grateful and show them you care.

5. Be respectful and responsible for boundaries.

My Family relationships aren’t perfect but through working to improve myself and keep my word of not leaving The Group Home. I’m hoping to rebuild the bridges I have messed up. I I have faith that God will help me to be able to make amends and we can move past difficult times.

I have to learn to not make the same mistakes again and to keep going forward in life. Without dwelling on the past. The surgeon said yesterday that surgery was optional and that their healed up and to just keep them clean. They don’t hurt anymore and I am glad I didn’t have to have surgery. Oh! The scars and scabs of life.

Tuesday’s Team Work

What does it take to be a leader? In my opinion it takes some time to get used to the people you work with. Knowing you can trust people; and trying to gain trust in return. Once you have built good teamwork going relationships you need to take pride in the current moment and keep a Christian Perspective on small improvements.

12 Steps To Amazing 🤩 Team Work

1. Everything gets better in time but you can’t just stop 🛑 the process when trials get in the way. For instance when a problem has occurred at The Group Home 🏡 I have learned not to be part of the drama and I’m better staying out of it.

The police 👮‍♀️ have had to come in to take care of some situations but I haven’t been in any danger and I keep calm knowing I am not causing problems.

2. You have to want to be a team player and not take a backseat to life. Your life is your life but more importantly it’s a gift 💝 from “God Of Nation Armies” !!!

Don’t seek out a role you’re not ready for and take time to see where you can best fit your needs while also meeting the needs of others in the group.

3. Check out a personality profile on 🥰 ! I’m an INTP; meaning I am a deep thinker and an introvert who loves to learn.

4. Focus on the positive aspects of your situation & it takes just one person to set a bad vibe to the whole tribe. We can all tell when we are having a good time together but be aware because as good as the situation can get. There’s always something that can throw yourself and your team off track. So be prepared when this happens by having a back up plan.

5. Seems my caseworker is running a bit late ⏰! Don’t fret over something you can’t control but make sure you keep your word and don’t flake or cause drama over not getting your way. Be patient and ready for whatever life or the project that needs to be completed ✅ calls for.

6. Communication is key; and I have learned a lot as a Communication Major. I like to discuss the things that I am learning to my readers and tell of my stories and how the things I learned are useful in my life.

7. Things work better when you cooperate and stop fighting to always get your way. When things don’t work out the way you planned on them take a step back and see what could have happened differently. Just because it didn’t happen when you wanted it to doesn’t mean it won’t; so stick in there and don’t beat yourself up.

8. There is no I in Team! We all end up as a part of the group and most of this is what we learned in school 🏫 when you see yourself drifting off or someone being excluded 👽 pick up the pieces.

10. My caseworker is here and I rescheduled my appointment for 1PM; when it was at 10:45AM. We’re going to drive around and then go to the Dollar Tree 🌲. I took initiative in my own hands and wasn’t sure if I made a good decision. He said thank you.

I haven’t always been consecutive about my choices or habits. Though since My 34rd Birthday I have received so much help with getting my life together. I willingly want to continue down a good path and see daily consecutive improvement.

My Caseworker is coming soon and everyone left to go to the center that they go to. Except for the elderly woman who I shared a room with for a little bit as she kept waking me up in the middle of the night.